Wednesday, May 27, 2009

從愛到死

眾生皆望愛。

常常有人問,人生最重要是什麼?人們總會回答說:愛過。愛過是圓滿人生的定義,人人張著咀閉著眼吟念著如此一詞 。愛過便不柱此生;愛過便死而無憾。然而,每當卧身思量時,愛過二字總是如此迷濛。

我們誰都好像愛過,誰亦沒有愛過。

愛過不等於長廂撕守,坊間對於愛過的定義大概意謂在人生中找著一個最愛的人,愛一次、愛都盡便是。可是現實每每跟想像各走兩端,有人愛過以後再愛過,有人來不及去愛便說再見。於是,愛過是童話、是夢囈,它變得有如稀世奇寶,人人都想要在有生之年真切地愛過,呼吸其中。可是,日換星移,愛過之人又有幾個?

愛過便是圓滿,到底還是凡人的一種我執。從基督教的角度去看,上帝是愛,上帝的愛如雨灑,只要你信,祂的愛隨傳隨到。又從佛教角度去看,心如明鏡台,只是染了塵所以被遮住了而已,所以愛要自心中求,向心公轉。可是在這個宗教衰亡的年代,上帝已死之後,人類沒靠可依,愛變得罕有,愛過從此變成人生目標。倒帶回到最初,我們其實誰沒有愛過?只是我們習慣把愛分大與小,往往執著於那一份所謂「難能可貴的愛」。愛其實並不稀奇,愛其實是最便宜的東西;它,就是散落一地讓人去撿。家人的愛、朋友的愛、當然還有前度的愛,不夠麼?你可以去愛愛不認識的陌生人,給遠處的人一點溫暖。說到底,愛就是一點點的微溫。執於愛過,其實只是我們都忘了愛其實是原始的,垂手可得的。既然愛如此簡單,那麼人生最重要是什麼?

我說:死過。

人生最重要的是死亡,沒有死亡就沒有人生。道理很簡單,就如那一個遊戲:給你一分鐘在超市內任拿,當然拿得愈多愈好,可是好在哪裡?好就好在有時限。如果沒有時限,誰個會在意拿多拿小?反正沒有限期,明天可以再來。人生是這麼的一個遊戲,因為有限,所以才有價值。可是在現代社會中,死亡卻被建構為另一種異於其本質的「死亡」。死亡是因為疾病,死亡是因為意外,所以保險經紀於是向我們推銷豐盛人生的資本計劃,我們買危疾保、買意外保。然而購買這些保險背後的底層動機是什麼?答案是因為我們都想要把死亡延遲。死亡的意義在現代社會中被轉向為向生的計劃。這些計劃在表面上是正面的,然而,卻只會令我們更遠離死亡,不正視、不思考 --- 人,作為人的「必死性」。因為這樣的一個社會環境,於是死亡被定義為人生的終點,一切灰飛煙滅的根源,因此我們都怕死,不會切心去想何謂死亡,死亡於生又有何意義。又因為這個原因,所以人們變得不再珍惜生命,自殺數字所以上升。只有當我們能夠認真思考死亡,面對「必死」,我們才會知道何謂活著,又如何去活。

那個遊戲的意義在於時限,可是人生比遊戲吊詭的地方是人不會知道自身時限有多少,於是我們盡量不想不談不視。儂曦說:「共生是於他者中看見死亡,了解自身『必死』。」正因如此,所以每當我們看到他人死亡,總會在腦海中閃過自身死亡的一個念頭,可是我們都認為生存與活著比死亡重要,所以都回頭繼續去為現實幹活。直到兩腳一伸才發現勞累一生都不知為何而活。要知所活為何事,單單從「活」的一面去看只會令價值偏差,要參透,要感受,相反地其實要往死裡尋。只有明白「必死」,才會知道那一分鐘該如何花。

人,愛過一定不只一次。瞎了眼去執迷那被推到雲端的「愛過」,只會把人間所有的愛推落盲點。而活不是只是為了活,活著還有一個更重要的事,沒有這一件事,活只是空活與苦活。

死過這事兒。

Sunday, May 17, 2009

當下回憶

「發生過」,從來都只有一個面向:曾經如此偶然而已。
如果說「發生過」是一些讓我們可以放在記憶裡面偶爾溫存的畫面,那麼,當中所有的感受與情意都只是我們用現在的思維後加於上的;因為面對回憶,需要的是現在的/當下的一個自己。回憶本身並沒有情操可言,「它」只是一個畫面,一個曾經的偶然被凝定在時間之中。當現在的我去回憶那一個偶然的時候,現在的情、當下的感覺才是關鍵才是觸動情緒的因。
「時間可以沖淡一切」意不在那個「想要被忘掉的事情的本身」,而是在於時間可以改變我們自身的情感意向:下一個當下,下一個現在的情感。在記憶之中的一切,一定存在於本身的記憶內。忘記只是因為遺失 --- 那一個畫面遺失在本體的意識之中,不是「它」被忘記,而是「它」在個體意識中被放到最不起眼的位置。慢慢地,有新的「它」被放入意識,而那個最初的「它」被壓在最底,而我們認為這是忘記。
忘記是不存在的一個狀態,我們不可能去忘記未被忘記的事;只是當我們去按那個搜尋的鍵時,卻找不著那個「它」。其實「它」並沒有被忘記,「它」,只是被封存到意識之中的某一個隙縫裡面。有一日,因為某種原因,「它」會再出現然後又再次被遺失。
既然忘記是不可能的,那麼在「它」未被遺失以前,當下的回憶狀態才是情感的裂點。
當我們回憶時,支配這次回憶的是當下的感情。所以分手以後,每一次回憶,每一次的痛,都是屬於當下的。你不可能在回憶之中找出痛點;只有在現在 --- 眼眶聚焦的一個點才是你最切身的痛。有些時候,回憶不是自願的,相反地是被帶領的。當那一個「它」進入遺失的準備狀態中,會被一些當下外來的因素打擾而中斷了那個遺失的準備狀態。「它」再一次走到最前方,可是如之前說過記憶本身是不帶情感的。痛、愛與苦是因為當下的情,此情可以是懷念,可以是恨,當然,也可以愛慾依然。
所以當我們面對記憶時,不要沉在記憶之中,因為在記憶中不可能找到出口,也不可能找到痛點。我們需要面對的是當下的一切。發生過的只是記憶,是世界萬千偶然的一點而已,而終有一日它會沉下,會遺失…
既然所有的骯髒與枯萎都已吞下,都已成記憶,當下散落一地的碎片又何苦去撿?
去撿,割損的是現在的你。

Friday, April 17, 2009

Wednesday, April 1, 2009

One Square Foot photography by John Fung

I have been extremely busy in the past few weeks, therefore it has been nearly a month which I did not put anything new here. Anyhow, I am back.

Recently there was an exhibition which held in the Hong Kong Center The Jockey Club Gallery – John Fung ‘s photography exhibition One Square Foot. In this exhibition, Fung uses photograph as a medium to question about the environmental and spatial problem in Hong Kong.

Fung, rotates his camera towards the skyscrapers in this small city, and by going through these multi-exposing and overlapping of scenes, therefore a new perspective is shown. As Hong Kong is famous of her high population density, and many of the pictures of Hong Kong emphasis on her highly compacted city-scape. Landscape is rarely seen in Hong Kong, but city-scape. When one walks along the street in Hong Kong, the sky is being torn into fragments. In another words, the skyscrapers in Hong Kong are actually restructuring our vision of naturalness. To the people who live in this small city, looking up to the sky is no longer an unlimited visual experience; instead, it traps, restrains and compresses their perception. And in the past decade, in order to maximize the use of lands and the profits of the developers, screen buildings (or later people calls it Partiperty) were built in everywhere in Hong Kong. These buildings further deepen the problem towards environmental pollution.

This is our sky, this is our city; we already forgot the moral of the tower of Babel.







One Square Foot photography by John Fung
26th Feb - 31st Mar2009
The Jockey Club Gallery, Hong Kong Art Center


Saturday, March 7, 2009

Art / History

Human writes history and at the same time, history re-writes human. However, how to read history? how can people position themselves in between current and history?

In 2007, the Antiquities and Monuments Office of the Leisure and Cultural Services Department obtained the right to conduct an archaeological investigation of the Former Hollywood Road Police Married Quarters. The excavation of this former site leads to a re-discover of the vestige of the Central School, which was built in 1862 and being destroyed during the Second World War. The revitalization of the Central School has a profound significance: not only to the history of Hong Kong, but also points to the future development of this post-colonial city.

Let’s go back to the question, How do we position ourselves in the stream of history? History is just nothing if it cannot be decoded. In another words, history is vivid only when future is desirous of. This moment is thus alive and The Former Central School Envisioning Days take off. This event offer artists chances to response to a historical space, and at the same times, audiences can take this chance to experience the culture, art and site together in one piece. However, I am not going to dig into the history and future plan of the site in this review, but to evaluate the relationship in between art and site in the entire event. If anyone would like to read more about the history and future plan of the Police Married Quarters/ Central School, please kindly browse the following website.

http://sunzi1.lib.hku.hk/hkio/view/44/4401260.pdf
http://genforum.genealogy.com/hongkong/messages/141.html
http://www.amo.gov.hk/form/AAB_Paper131_hollywood_content_c.pdf

So, what plays the most important role in between art and site? Robert Irwin once introduce the term site-specific art.

Site-specific art is created to be placed in certain location, the site becomes part of the artwork and vice versa. This kind of artwork is created to be there but not anywhere else, to move the artwork is to destroy the artwork. It raises an inextricable and indivisible relationship between the work and the site. All physical elements such as the length, depth and height of the venue, the shape and condition of the walls and room, the scale and ratio of the square, existing condition of the sunlight, humidity, ventilation will be taken into account when the artist first planning to create their artwork in that particular site. Other than the physical element, the historical element is also one of the important issues. What happened here before? What is going to happen? And what is the relationship between the artwork and the history? All these questions reflect and enforce in the content of the artwork. Furthermore, the site-specific artwork offer a more intense relationship with the outside world and everyday life. It makes art more directly to the realm of the society. People participate in the conceptualization and production, art, seen as a means to reinforce its capacity to penetrate the social issues of the contemporary life with greater impact and meaning. Therefore, artists who participate in this project are attempted to cut into the deepest part of the site culturally and historically.

One of the installations created by Anothermountainman calls To begin with, there isn’t any matter. This installation expresses a sense of memory of emptiness – sometimes people encounter a deep feeling of “I have been here before” even though they know that this is their first time to come to this place, it indicates a lost in abstraction. Certainly, a lot of significant events had happened at the Police Married Quarters/ Central School, the process of building up, destroy and re-build remind the continuous living cycle on earth. Happening and passing is actually born as one. It is a cycle with no start and end, "As there is nothing from the first, where does the dust collect itself?"



Anothermountainman, To begin with, there isn’t any matter, Paper and Cotton Fabric

Another installation Route, by Leung Ching Man reveals the site in an essentially different direction. Leung hangs a string of colorful film with a tiny black and white drawing at the corner of each film to create a connection of her work and the site. One might not see anything special if they are standing far from the hanging film, but once they get closer they would see that the scene outside is dimly appearing through the film and the tiny black and white drawing is touching the actual scene in the unfilled space in between each film. (Please see the picture below.) The vision of the audience is now being cut into layers and fragments like a puzzle. When one walks from one room to another room, the route of experience is itself a collage.

Leung Ching Man, Route, Flim, B/W Photo on Papers

However, the most impressing part in the whole project is the "football", which placed inside the corner room at the end of the corridor at the upper block. I am not sure if the curators intentionally leave the football there or not. Anyhow, this football tells a story, a story about being-here. It is a matter of timeliness. The footprints of the forefathers create history. They have been here not too long ago, and today, we are being here.

Someone plays the football, someone leaves the football and someone is now looking at the football.








Other Artworks:

Seemanho, in Room 104, Installation.

Kum Chi Keung, Room in the Sky, Installation.
Lam Laam Jaffa, I’m not a curator, Installation.
Art loan from:Luk Ching, Yvonne Cheng, Shirley Lee,Lee Lee, Leo Wong, Elsa Wong, Boy Yiu
Below is 2 Video about the installation:









Former Central School Envisioning Days
Date: 21,22,28/2/09 and 1/3/09
Venue: Former Hollywood Rood Police Quarters (35 Aberdeen St., Central District

P.S. For those who missed the exhibition, The Artist Commune will re-exhibit the photos and selective artworks later.
Date: 14-29/03/09
Venue: Unit 12, Cattle Depot Artist Village, 63 Ma Tau Kok Road, Kowloon, HK
Enquiry: 21043322
m63@artist-commune.com
http://www.artist_commune.com/

Sunday, February 22, 2009

Nothing But The System


Nothing But The System
(A poetic review of the New Media Arts Exhibition Project)

Microsoft is hard.
And the apple is suffering from a nasty bite.
The screen seems to throb in his eye.
However,
His mind is blank.

Sound is English.
But the visual is Japanese.
No subtitle, no gesture and no conversation.
Nothing but the system itself is communicating.

Here the moon is resting,
Thus,
This is the world of the CD-ROM.
It shines above human.
It re-creates the sky.

Warmness is gone.
Blood is frozen.
The legends are buried inside the RAM.
Interactive is their Slogan.

Life is now merely a system,
Getting lost in reverie.
The aroma of human flesh is vanished,
And never to return.

What appears in dream is the mesh of optical fiber.
What is under recording is the weather of today.

Close your eye,
The ice cream is melting,
But the screen stood still.



New Media Arts Exhibition Project – Intermedia Experiment at HKAS
Artists:Samson Young and Christopher Lau
Musicians : Johnny Fong(Clarinet),James Cuddeford(Violin), Chang Pei-chieh(Cello), Mary Wu(Piano)
Performers : HKAS students & other participants of the workshop

Performance : Quartet for the end of time
Venue : The McAulay Studio, Hong Kong Arts Centre
Date and Time :
14 February 2009 (Sat)3pm - 4:15pm
14 February 2009 (Sat) 8pm - 9:15pm
15 February 2009 (Sun)3pm - 4:15pm
Forum Date and Time:15 February 2009 (Sun)4:30pm (after the performance)

Project RED 殷赤绯丹紅

Red, is something immersed with fantasy. Someone may find it dreadful, and someone may see it as a plaintive tale. In a world of red, it ‘s nothing there but only a vast expanse of signifier. Dig into the history of mankind, red is the first color to be recognized and named. In the eddy of time, human gives red different meaning, and Red, thereby, mingles and bequeaths these meaning to the universe. Just one click on the mouse, here red comes.

“Red is the warmest of all colors. Red is the color most chosen by extroverts and one of the top picks of males. On the negative side red can mean temper or anger. In China, red is the color of prosperity and joy. Brides wear red and front doors are often painted red. Red is Tuesday's color. Red roses symbolize passionate love. Ruby rings should be worn on the left hand. Red is the color of Mars. This planet is known as the God of War. Red is the color of blood, and as such has strong symbolism as life and vitality. It brings focus to the essence of life and living with emphasis on survival. Red is also the color of passion and lust.”

This is a project about red; this is also a project about what is red.

Since the mid of 2007, a group of artists affiliated their life with red. They attempt to fascinate people with the weapon of red. This weapon is tender yet ferocious, as though the human on earth. With the ambiguous attitude of this unique colour, these artists thus link it up with the living world – culturally, emotionally and politically. It crosses years and flies upon generations. And red is now incarnated into different forms and medias, pervading the entire exhibition venue.

The project of red is a process with no end. Red interprets itself, and human re-interpret red.

Red, is in its looping motion.



Hiyuki Ogata, Red Tide花潮, Installions, Size Variable.


Winne Fu, Paint It Red 髹紅漆, Video Installations.


Addis Fung, Little Red Pills 美好生活, Installations, Size Variable.


Chan Wing-chiu, Hidden 潛, Installions, Size Variable.


Project RED/殷赤绯丹紅
Featuring Artists: Gred Conradt, Maeva Aubert, Winne Fu, Chan Wing-chiu, Franky Lung, Hiyuki Ogata, Jupiter Wong, Magdalen Wong, Shoutingmute, Addis Fung and Oliver Fung.
Date: 6 -22/02/2009
Venus: A-Link Plus, C C Wu Building, Hennessy Road, Wan Chai